Preparing To Teach
I like teaching. I don’t know if I am any good at it, but I do really love to do it. I think I just like the opportunity to share what I know, with a small group of people. I do well with intimate settings. However, as with most of my endeavors, I get very nervous.
With my nerves, comes shots to the self-esteem from that dark part of the brain that likes to tell me that I am not as knowledgeable as I portray myself. I am not smart enough, I am not good enough, and why am I pretending to have anything valuable to contribute to the community? Logically, I know that none of this is true. But deep down, I have been told this enough that I still battle it every time I go to teach or sit in a shop to offer readings.
To negate this, I create outlines for my classes. If I have an outline, I feel like I can stay on topic and make sure that I don’t miss a single detail in the process. Part of the process of writing it all down (which I do by hand!) helps it solidify in my mind how I want my class to go. Then when I teach, I often refer to my notes because I can easily get distracted and go off the rails.
When I have taught without my notes, it usually doesn’t flow the way I want it to. Most everyone has told me that my classes are still excellent, even without my notes. But for me, it’s a stressful thing to try and run a class without my outline. I always end up feeling like I left something out!
I will be teaching Scrying 101 at Mystic South in July and I will definitely be sure to use notes. If you are considering going to the event, do look for me (even if you aren’t taking my class) because I would love for the chance to say Hi!